Thursday, January 15, 2009

It's all about MYSELF!!

After one year my parents get married, the doctor has verified that my mom was pregnant and who’s in there?? The answer is me!!! In the time of nine month my mom was pregnant, my mom and my dad go to Makkah to perform their Hajj. My mom said that, all the Hajj pilgrimages include the Arabian there, were praying for me. They pray, so that I’ll be as brave and strong as the Khalifah Umar Al Khatab and all the other Khalifah. Maybe because of that, I look like a boy. Then, when the time is coming, my mother gives birth me on the 4th of January 1989 at the Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah (HTAR), Klang Selangor early in the morning, is about 3.15 a.m. if I’m not mistaken. My mom said, when the first time she saw me, she saw my fathers face. She said that our face is almost looking same. My parents were very happy for having me as their first child. So, my father gives me such a nice and beautiful name that is Sharifah Ainaa Mardhiyah Syed Redhwan. Sharifah means the prophet pedigree and Ainaa means the beautiful eyes. I’m very happy to get that name even though some people said it’s hard to pronounce it!!

When I’m in two years old, I got a little cute brother names ‘Azim. At that time, my mother work as the chief at my uncles’ restaurant. My mother had to bring us with her because my mothers don’t have money to send us to the nursery and so on. Day after day, week after week and years after years, my age is growing up and same goes to me. Usually when a children at six years old, their parents will send them to the school or tadika as a preparing before they go to the primary school, but not for me. I don’t have any sweet memory at the tadika like the other children. My moms teach me at home how to read, doing the calculation and so on. This is because my parents don’t have enough money at that time. At the same time, I got a new babies from my mom names La’aiba and two years after that I got one more baby boys names Matiin. Even though I never go to school or tadika, I never felt sad because I’ve my mom who’s being my teacher at home.

I start my first study at Sekolah Kebangsaan Raja Muda, Kuala Lumpur. Then my families moved to our hometown, Klang. I start my new life there with a new environment, new friends and the best part is my house is nearest to my uncles and aunties house. My fathers also send me to Sekolah Kebangsaan Bukit Kuda when I’m in standard two. I’m not feel so friendless, this is because most of my friends at that school were live near to my house. So I’m not alone there and I feel so happy. When I’m in standard three, my teachers choose me to be a prefect at the school. I felt so scared and tell my mom and my mom said that I can do it. So I take that as a challenge and finally, I made it!!! I love sport so much!! I’m very active person. I’ve joined the sports since I’m in standard one and become an athlete for my school when I’m in standard two until now. I like net ball so much. My position is center (C). Even though people will avoid from take that position because it’s very tired position but it’s not for me. I like that position so much!! Besides that, I also like track field sports too, like 200 meters and so on. I love sports so much!! Of course I’ll not forget about my study. When I’m in standard six, I have to face an important examination for the first time in my life. My mom always force me to study and I know that is good but to me, I don’t like to being force, if I want to do than I’ll do it. At last, I get 2 A’s, 2 B’s and 1 C for my UPSR result. I felt so happy at the beginning but I know that the result is not good. Its okay and I promise to my self to do a better at the future.

I further my study at the Sekolah Menengah Perempuan (P) Bukit Kuda, Klang. I study at that school for three years, starting from form one until form three. Like usually, I’ve been an active student. I’ve joined many sports and society like net ball, track field and also Cadets Remaja Sekolah (KRS). All the things that I involved in, at least will bring back a sweet memory to me and all my friends. So I felt so happy. At that moment, I don’t really like the entire prefect there. I hate rule at that time and like to be free. But so far, I never get into serious problem and I still keep my discipline record clean. Even though I a little bit busy with the activities, I never forget about my responsibility as a student. Finally I get a flying color for my PMRs result. I get 6 A’s and 2 B’s. I’m very happy with my result and I’m sure that my parents also were happy with my result. After that, all my happiest moment is gone just like that when my parents have decided to move to Johor Bahru. I felt very depressing but I don’t have any choice and have to go even it’s very hard for me to start a new life at a new place.
For the first time I walk into my new school that is Sekolah Kebangsaan Tasek Utara(2), Johor Bahru, I felt very shocked with the way they dress up, talk and so on. It’s totally differing from my old school. More over, this school is mix between girls and boys. So I felt very weird. But I think, what ever happen, there must be something goods besides that. It’s true!! I’ve become a head prefect at my school. The true is, actually I just want to collect the certificate by join the society but my teacher and almost all the student choose me to be a head prefect. I also get many rewards from my school such as, “Tokoh Pelajar”, “Pelajar Paling Aktif”, “Pelajar Cemerlang” and many more. I’m very surprised and of course I’m very happy because I’ve the chance to show my ability to be a good leader. I got 4 A’s, 1 B, 1C and 4 D’s for my SPM examination. I felt very sad and shame to myself because get that bad result. After that, I said to myself that, what ever happen, life must go on. I’ll do my best if I’ve a chance to get into a University.

I start my new life and forgot all the past. Even though it’s very hard but I don’t have any choice. While I’m waiting for the callings from UiTM, I go to find a job. It’s very hard actually to get money. Firstly, I work at “The Chicken Rice Shop”, Klang. I’ve collect many experiences from there. After that, I got a job as a sales girl at Angsana Mall, Johor Bahru. At last, I got a work at “The Body Shop”, Jusco Klang as a product advisor. It is a sweet memory that I’ll never forget about it. The loveliest moment that I’ll never forget is, when I got a letter from UiTM, Segamat Johor. I felt very happy and excited to go there. I use all my salary to buy all the tools, pays the fees and so on. Until now, I felt very happy and excited to achieve my ambition and target for the future.

This is all about me. I can’t judge myself. Just people, who look at myself and be my friends, will know who I am actually. I don’t like people just judge me without knowing me. Life is too complicated!! Sometimes, is too sweet and sometimes it’s too pain. Many things that I’ve to face when I’m still young until now. Example like, my parents get into divorce, I’ve been slander by my friends and also my uncle, I loose my two little sister and brother and so on. Sometimes, I felt too tired to go on with my life, but I’ve to be strong to face all the problems that come to me. I know that make me become more matured and understand what life is about actually. This is my life!! My beautiful life!!


  1. You and your siblings have unique names. If your name means "eyes", what about your siblings'?

    It doesn't matter at all if you did not have the opportunity to attend kindergarten, as your mother realized that education is important and she had educated you herself. You should be proud of her for having the initiative to educate you herself.

    I'm sorry that sometimes life is too hard for you.. but Allah had decided our fate and there must be something good (hikmah) behind all that. Who knows.. it might be a blessing in disguise, right?

    You have a good life so far. I'm touched to know that you had spent your salary for the preparations to come here. Make the most of your life here in UiTM Segamat. Study hard and make sure you graduate with CGPA 3.0 and above.

    Most importantly, remember that Allah is always there for you and for all of us. Amin.

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