Tuesday, January 27, 2009

My "SEMPOI" classmate;0

For this semester, I’ve register for D3B2 class. Two semesters before this, I’m in the first class but this semester I decide to take second class. This is because D3B2 schedule, there is no class on Friday. More over, the schedule is not pack like D3B1 and D3B3 classes. I know my old classmate will ask me, why I take D3B2 class and not D3B1. Even though I felt so sad of these changes, I realize that I’m here because I want to get knowledge not to get exulting!!! So let’s go and see what kind of student in D3B2 class!!!

1. Al-Amirul. He’s actually transfer from Kedah campus. Al is very talk active person. He’s very friendly person and as I know, he like to sings!!!

2. Asyraf. We actually already meet in MKT 243 class at the last semester. He’s very talk active person and also kind.

3. Azhar or Sood. I know him since we joined the Karisma 2008. He’s very funny person and likes to comment at my post. Thanks dude.

4. Dato’ Khalid. Opss… sorry it’s Khalid actually. People said that he’s like a Romeo but to me, he’s kind of responsible person.

5. Naz whose looks like an actor. Haha…. That’s what my lecturer has told us. He also same with Azhar. He’s very funny person.

6. Syahrul. Actually his new in our class. He’s quit a silent person. Maybe because he’s new student in our class.

7. Am. She’s very happy so lucky girl. In addition, she’s very girlish person and kind person.

8. Salwa. She has a twin named Radiah. She’s very kind and sweet person.

9. Atikah. She’s senior than me. So I don’t really know about her but I know that she’s nice person.

10. Irma. She’s very sweet person. Like to smile and always bring her beloved bottle I think, in the class.

11. Zaleha. Actually, I don’t really know about her but I’m very sure that she’s very nice girl.

12. Shiela. At first I thought she’s very silent person, but when I try to have a talk with her, actually she’s not bad, very soft person.

13. Halimatussa’diah. As I know, she’s the student who’s had transfer from Kelantan campus. She’s very nice and kind person.

14. Radhiah. She’s Salwa twin. She also very nice and kind person. Sometimes, I couldn’t know which one are Salwa and Radhiah, but now, I already know.

15. Azierah. She’s very kind person. Even though she’s very quite person, but when she start to talk, more over with Halimatussa’diah and Azirah, for sure she’s look different.

16. Ernie. She’s my classmate when we’re in first semester. As I know, she’s quit a silent person and also soft spoken.

17. Suhaida. She’s like to ask the lecturer, but I don’t really know about her. But I know she’s very good girl.

18. Lynn. Even though she’s one of the senior in the class, but she’s kind of person of happy girl and also kind person!

19. Nik!!! At part one and also part two, she’s the class representative same goes like me. She’s nice girl and also a good leader.

20. Azirah. She’s also kind of a silent person. But I know she’s a nice person. She will totally become somebody that very talk active person when she meets her friends.

21. Salbiah. She’s very strong person and likes to give me an advice when I felt down. She also is the person that not easy to give up.

22. Huda. She’s never smile in the class but I know she’s very nice girl and I hope after this Amirul will not asking for her smile anymore.

23. Shahida. She’s very kind and helpful person. This is because she always helps her partner to do the work.

24. Siti Farahiyah. She’s very close to me. She’s the one who want to follow me to the class early in the morning. Fara always know when I’m sad, tension, or moody through my face expression.

25. Another Fara. I think she’s Sheila best friends. She also quit a silent person. But I bet you better you don’t judge her like that because she also has join futsal sports.

26. Nur Izzaty Hisamuddin. She also one of my friend that close to me. She’s very soft person and also kind. Another secret that you have to know that, she obsesses to the camera.

27. Shikin. At first, I thought she’s kind of arrogant person, but after I know her she’s not like that. She’s very kind girl.

28. Last but not least is Raja. My perception about her same like what I thought about Shikin. This is because they look very close. But actually, she’s very kind.

Actually, for your information, I don’t really know about my classmate because this is my first time in the second class. But I’ll try my best to be familiar with them. I’ll try my best to be part of them because I think if I’ve a bad relation with my classmate, I will feel so uncomfortable in that class. So, I want to make them like my own ‘siblings’, so we can share whether when we’re happy or when we face a problem. So I’ll put more effort to get know them. GAMBATENE AINAA SAN!!! However it is, I love all my ‘sempoi’ friends!!!

It's not fake!!!

Fact means thing known to have happened or to be true or to be exist. In simple words, facts mean something that is true. Do you want to know 10 facts about me, Sharifah Ainaa Mardhiyah Syed Redhwan???? My name already shown that is facts. So, let’s go and see what 10 facts about me are!!!

The first facts of me are I HATE COCKROACH SO MUCH!!! I hate that kind of insect. The way a cockroach looking at me, the structure of the cockroach body and all about the cockroach. I don’t like it!!! In addition, there is one type of a cockroach that I don’t like that is fly cockroach!!! When I saw there is a cockroach in my way, I’ll get shock and try to find another way to go to the place that I want to go. Actually, I started to hate this insect since I’m in the primary school. My friends give me a chewing gum and when I pull it out, I scream loudly because that is not a chewing gum but a fake cockroach!!! Starting from that, I hate cockroach so much!!!

CHOCOKE!!! I love them so much!!! I’m sure you will think so many times about the meanings of that words and the answer also you will never get from the dictionary or somewhere else. CHOCOKE means chocolate and coca-cola. I love to eat chocolate and drink coca-cola so much, especially when I’m feel bored, sad, tension or even moody. I love Cadbury chocolate and of course black forest flavor. When I’m in a bad mood, I can even finish the biggest chocolate bar!!! Same goes to coca-cola. If I was tension or have a problem, I’ll find the coca-cola and drink it until finish. For example, one day I felt very disappointed with my ex-boyfriend, I drink a big bottle of coca-cola and after that I vomit all the things. But the fact is I love CHOCOKE so much!!!

Anger is my bad attitude. That is one of the facts about me. Actually, I’m not that kind of person. I’ll be a nice person to other person if they also being nice to me. For example, when I’m in a good mood but suddenly people do something bad to me, for sure I’ll being a Green Hulk!!! I hate for being an anger person because I know people will hate me if I be like that. So I hope that I’ll change to a better person someday.

Next is, I like to write an essay whether in English or Malay. It does begin when I’m in secondary school. My teachers teach me how to write an essay by using the formula of “What, Why and How”. I wrote an essay using that formula whether in Malay or even English essay. At the school, my essay always was being a role essay to other students. So from that, I’m interested to write an essay and I like to write an essay base on my experience, so it’s not too hard for me to create an idea because I know what is already happen. So, I love to write!!!

Tears are my best friends in the world. Why I said like that? This is because, I like to cry when I feel so sad, happy, when I feel alone and when I need somebody but there is no one. I am the person that can’t keep the problem by my own and tell to the people that I trust. But if there is nobody that I can tell my problem, I’ll cry and cry by myself. Tears are my best friends in the world.

In addition, computer is not my interest. That is a fact!!! I don’t really like computer. Like Malays said, “Buta IT”. I’m the one in that group. I don’t know anything about computer, this is because I never go to the computer classes. But I’ve to learn to use the computer because I’ll use the computer in the future. Even now, I already use the laptop to complete the assignment. But the reality is, I don’t really like a computer.

I’m not ready for having a boyfriend. For sure that’s a fact about me. I was a very faithful person in love for long time ago. But, since my ex-boyfriend ask me to break up with him just because we are too far and for me, that is a stupid reason. So now, I think better I have no relationship with other guys and I hope that one day I’ll find a man and get married and after that, then we’ll get in love. I’m not ready for love!!!

Another fact about me is, I hate people who betray me. Example like, in front me they are very nice to me but at the back, they talk a bad things about me. I really don’t like that kind of people. They seems like a fake to me, a fake things!!! I hate that.

I hate being force!!! I don’t like do a work, anything such as study or cooking, that is being forcing by other people. This is because, I know the result will not good as good as I do the work by my own. I’ll do when I want to do and not by being force!!

Last but not least, I love chocolate cake so much!!! Huh!!! It's very delicious. Every time my birthday was coming, my mom will bake a chocolate cake for me. I can even finish all the chocolate cake!!! Greedy right??? I don't care! Until know, I'm still crazy of chocolate cake. Owh chocolate cake!!!

So that is 10 facts about me. It just about me. I’ll try to be a good person in a future. So, don’t you dare to give me a joke such as giving me a cockroach!!! I’ll kick you!!!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

I love my entire SUBJECT!!!

At this third semester, I’ll already register all sevens subject that I’ll be taken that is English for Academic purposes (BEL 311), Microeconomics (ECO 261), Statistic (QMT 216), Business Communication (MGT 269), Economic in Islam (CTU 241) and last but not least, net ball co-curriculum subject. As I remember, when I’m in part one and part two, I just only take six subject including co-curriculum but at this semester, I have to take seven subject. For the first time, I feel that it’s very hard to me, to carry the entire seven subjects because I never take seven subjects before this. But when I think for a while about what is actually my purpose to come here, so I left the entire negative thinking and set in my mind, all the subject that I’ll take, will become an easier subject and try to get A’s for all the subject. InsyaAllah...

My first class is Business Communication (MGT 269). The lecturers that teach me will be Mr.Ahmad Kamil. I’ve heard about him before this. Many students said that he’s very strict person and many of them get ‘F’ grad for his paper. I felt very scared and try to change to another class but my friends told me that Mr.Ahmad Kamil will take all the business students classes. So, I’ve no choice and have to go on with his class. For the first time I saw him, he seems like to what all students said about him. But when at the tutor class, I see that he’s not like what all the students said. His very kind person, love to laugh I think and I like him, the way he teaches us. At the first day in his class, he already calls my name. I felt very happy because that lecturer knows that I’m existing. I love this subject because I’ve heard about this subject when I’m in part two and it’s very attracting me. This is because we will have an activity like a meeting, presentation that required me to wear proper clothes like blazer and so on. I don’t have this kind of activities before, so I’m very interesting to join it!! He also mentions us about the assessment marks that will be 60 percent for assessment and another 40 percent is from the final exam. We’re also required to do an assignment, meeting, report writing, presentation and many activities that will be done. So my hope for this paper is, I want to get an A’s. InsyaAllah…

Next subject that I’ll be taken for this semester is Arabic (BAB 101). For your information, I take this subject is because my lecturer ask me to take that subject. So I decide to take this subject and actually I don’t really like Arabic but I decide to take this subject because suddenly I interested to take Arabic. My Arabic’s lecturer name is Ustaz Syazali Arifin. I know him because he’s one of the important people in the UiTM. He’s very strict person and concern about students’ discipline. First time I saw meets him, I thought that he is very fierce but after he start to talk, then I know his very funny and like to make a joke. So, I’m very happy to be in his class. My first impression about this subject is not too good, because I don’t really like this subject! But I think that, nothing is easy in this world. So I’ll give my best to study this subject and I’ll also hope that I’ll get an A’s for this subject. Ustaz Syazali also has told us about the carry marks that including of 60% of assessment marks and another 40% will come from final exam. He also tells us that maybe there is no finals exam for Arabic paper for this semester. I’m a little bit happy but I can’t take for granted about that assessment marks. So, I will work hard to achieve my target for Arabic which is to get an A’s grad.

Mr.Izuan Ismail. His is my English for Academic purpose (BEL 311) lecturer. I’m a little bit scared when at the first time I saw him. His face is look like, he’s very fierce person and more over, he’s never smile in the class. But after almost one month I study with him, he is actually not that kind of person but maybe he’s too straight. I always wish that one day, he will give me and my entire classmate a very cool smile in the class. This is one of my favorites subject. This is because I like to talk in English and I’m hoping that one day I can speak fluently in English. In addition, there’s many interesting activities that I can join and it can help my English either in oral or written. In the first class, he already tells us about the assessment marks which is 60 % is from the activities like presentation, term paper and so on, and another 40% is come from final exam. More over, he also gives us an assignment at the first class that required us to find one topic and find the article from the internet and news paper, books that relate to the topic. For Bel 311 subject, I target to get an A’s and I’ll put more effort to achieve my target.

For this semester, I also will take Macroeconomics (ECO 261) subjects. At the beginning, there is a technical mistake at our schedule, but it already done by the HEA. The lecturer that will teach us is Madam Zuraidah Ismail. When I saw her at the first time and look at the way that she talks to us, I thought that she’s very strict person. But after almost one hour I study with her, she’s actually a nice person and she only being serious when she’s teaching us. I like the way she teach us. For the first time I hear about Eco 261, because of this subject is all about the hole economics and in addition, she teach us without follow the content that have in the manual books. So, its make me feel so hard to follow her lesson. But I’ll try to follow her way because that’s the only way to make sure that I’ll get what ever she teach us. Madam Zuraidah also tells us about the assessment marks that will be include of 40% for the test, quizzes and so on and another 60 % is from the final exam. So, my hope is I’ll get an A’s for this subject.

Statistic (QMT 216) is one of the subjects that I’ll be taken for this semester. I’ve heard about this subject from other student before this, that QMT 216 it’s easier than MAT 140. Even though it’s like what they say, but it doesn’t mean I can take it easy for this subject. For the first time I saw her, I now that she is nice lecturer but a little bit serious. I like to ask her anything that I don’t understand and she will answer my entire question. She also have tell us about the assessment marks which40% include of test, quizzes and also one final project and another 60% is from final paper. So, I’ll do my best to achieve my target for this subject and of course A’s is my target for QMT 216.

Economic Islam (CTU 241) will be taught by Ustaz Kamarulzaman Sulaiman. Before this I’ve heard a story about him from my senior. They said that he’s very funny lecturer and like to give a lesson from the story that he told us and it’s really true, because when he teach us in the class, he always make we laugh. After that, he’ll always remind us to take care about our self and remember our parents. I like him because he’s like my father that loves to motivate me. When I read the title of this CTU 241 subject, which is about Economic of Islam, I thought it’s very hard to me because the topic is too wide. Suddenly I think for a while. Why I’ve to set at my mind like this?? So I throw all the negative thinking and set in my mind, that I can do it!! My lecturer also explains to us about the assessment marks. Its same goes to BELL 311whicw is 40% will come from the presentation, quizzes, test and the important thing is the attendant and another 60% is come from final exam. My target for this subject is to get an A’s for this subject and I’ll go for it!!!

Last but not least, Co-curriculum subject. For this subject, I take Net ball (HSK 116) because l like this sports so much. At the beginning, I want to take Futsal, but that sports don’t have in the list, so I decide to take Net ball subject. Madam Azah. I already know about her before I join Net ball society. This is because, I’ve join the “Majlis Sukan Pelajar” when I’m in part one and she’s the one of the staff there. She’s very kind and very sporting person. I like her very much!!! For this subject, it’s easy to score A’s, but I’ll not take it easy. On the other hand, I’ll try my best to get an A’s for this subject.

After I calculate all the credit hour for all the subject that I’ll be taken for this semester, that is 18 credit hours which is a little bit high and hard to me if don’t score all the subject. So, I have to work hard to get all A’s for all subject in my final exam or maybe get a Dean List for the third time. InsyaAllah… I hope that I can do my best to achieve my dreams. You can do it Ainaa! Gambatene!!! May Allah bless Sharifah Ainaa Mardhiyah Syed Redhwan… Amin…

It's all about MYSELF!!

After one year my parents get married, the doctor has verified that my mom was pregnant and who’s in there?? The answer is me!!! In the time of nine month my mom was pregnant, my mom and my dad go to Makkah to perform their Hajj. My mom said that, all the Hajj pilgrimages include the Arabian there, were praying for me. They pray, so that I’ll be as brave and strong as the Khalifah Umar Al Khatab and all the other Khalifah. Maybe because of that, I look like a boy. Then, when the time is coming, my mother gives birth me on the 4th of January 1989 at the Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah (HTAR), Klang Selangor early in the morning, is about 3.15 a.m. if I’m not mistaken. My mom said, when the first time she saw me, she saw my fathers face. She said that our face is almost looking same. My parents were very happy for having me as their first child. So, my father gives me such a nice and beautiful name that is Sharifah Ainaa Mardhiyah Syed Redhwan. Sharifah means the prophet pedigree and Ainaa means the beautiful eyes. I’m very happy to get that name even though some people said it’s hard to pronounce it!!

When I’m in two years old, I got a little cute brother names ‘Azim. At that time, my mother work as the chief at my uncles’ restaurant. My mother had to bring us with her because my mothers don’t have money to send us to the nursery and so on. Day after day, week after week and years after years, my age is growing up and same goes to me. Usually when a children at six years old, their parents will send them to the school or tadika as a preparing before they go to the primary school, but not for me. I don’t have any sweet memory at the tadika like the other children. My moms teach me at home how to read, doing the calculation and so on. This is because my parents don’t have enough money at that time. At the same time, I got a new babies from my mom names La’aiba and two years after that I got one more baby boys names Matiin. Even though I never go to school or tadika, I never felt sad because I’ve my mom who’s being my teacher at home.

I start my first study at Sekolah Kebangsaan Raja Muda, Kuala Lumpur. Then my families moved to our hometown, Klang. I start my new life there with a new environment, new friends and the best part is my house is nearest to my uncles and aunties house. My fathers also send me to Sekolah Kebangsaan Bukit Kuda when I’m in standard two. I’m not feel so friendless, this is because most of my friends at that school were live near to my house. So I’m not alone there and I feel so happy. When I’m in standard three, my teachers choose me to be a prefect at the school. I felt so scared and tell my mom and my mom said that I can do it. So I take that as a challenge and finally, I made it!!! I love sport so much!! I’m very active person. I’ve joined the sports since I’m in standard one and become an athlete for my school when I’m in standard two until now. I like net ball so much. My position is center (C). Even though people will avoid from take that position because it’s very tired position but it’s not for me. I like that position so much!! Besides that, I also like track field sports too, like 200 meters and so on. I love sports so much!! Of course I’ll not forget about my study. When I’m in standard six, I have to face an important examination for the first time in my life. My mom always force me to study and I know that is good but to me, I don’t like to being force, if I want to do than I’ll do it. At last, I get 2 A’s, 2 B’s and 1 C for my UPSR result. I felt so happy at the beginning but I know that the result is not good. Its okay and I promise to my self to do a better at the future.

I further my study at the Sekolah Menengah Perempuan (P) Bukit Kuda, Klang. I study at that school for three years, starting from form one until form three. Like usually, I’ve been an active student. I’ve joined many sports and society like net ball, track field and also Cadets Remaja Sekolah (KRS). All the things that I involved in, at least will bring back a sweet memory to me and all my friends. So I felt so happy. At that moment, I don’t really like the entire prefect there. I hate rule at that time and like to be free. But so far, I never get into serious problem and I still keep my discipline record clean. Even though I a little bit busy with the activities, I never forget about my responsibility as a student. Finally I get a flying color for my PMRs result. I get 6 A’s and 2 B’s. I’m very happy with my result and I’m sure that my parents also were happy with my result. After that, all my happiest moment is gone just like that when my parents have decided to move to Johor Bahru. I felt very depressing but I don’t have any choice and have to go even it’s very hard for me to start a new life at a new place.
For the first time I walk into my new school that is Sekolah Kebangsaan Tasek Utara(2), Johor Bahru, I felt very shocked with the way they dress up, talk and so on. It’s totally differing from my old school. More over, this school is mix between girls and boys. So I felt very weird. But I think, what ever happen, there must be something goods besides that. It’s true!! I’ve become a head prefect at my school. The true is, actually I just want to collect the certificate by join the society but my teacher and almost all the student choose me to be a head prefect. I also get many rewards from my school such as, “Tokoh Pelajar”, “Pelajar Paling Aktif”, “Pelajar Cemerlang” and many more. I’m very surprised and of course I’m very happy because I’ve the chance to show my ability to be a good leader. I got 4 A’s, 1 B, 1C and 4 D’s for my SPM examination. I felt very sad and shame to myself because get that bad result. After that, I said to myself that, what ever happen, life must go on. I’ll do my best if I’ve a chance to get into a University.

I start my new life and forgot all the past. Even though it’s very hard but I don’t have any choice. While I’m waiting for the callings from UiTM, I go to find a job. It’s very hard actually to get money. Firstly, I work at “The Chicken Rice Shop”, Klang. I’ve collect many experiences from there. After that, I got a job as a sales girl at Angsana Mall, Johor Bahru. At last, I got a work at “The Body Shop”, Jusco Klang as a product advisor. It is a sweet memory that I’ll never forget about it. The loveliest moment that I’ll never forget is, when I got a letter from UiTM, Segamat Johor. I felt very happy and excited to go there. I use all my salary to buy all the tools, pays the fees and so on. Until now, I felt very happy and excited to achieve my ambition and target for the future.

This is all about me. I can’t judge myself. Just people, who look at myself and be my friends, will know who I am actually. I don’t like people just judge me without knowing me. Life is too complicated!! Sometimes, is too sweet and sometimes it’s too pain. Many things that I’ve to face when I’m still young until now. Example like, my parents get into divorce, I’ve been slander by my friends and also my uncle, I loose my two little sister and brother and so on. Sometimes, I felt too tired to go on with my life, but I’ve to be strong to face all the problems that come to me. I know that make me become more matured and understand what life is about actually. This is my life!! My beautiful life!!

Monday, January 5, 2009


Today I’ve learn a new songs.I never heard that songs, title “Breathe Again” by Juwita Suwito. When I heard this song for the first time and see the lyrics, it’s remind me about my first day in UiTM, Segamat Johor. This songs is about how we want to start a new life after we have to left all the sweet memory. I remember when the first time I walk into the UiTM Segamat Johor, I was alone and I have no friend at all. At that moment, I felt very afraid because I don’t know anybody in here. It’s totally different when I’m at the secondary school. At the secondary school, I already have many friends all are they were very kind but here in UiTM, I really don’t know what kind of people I’ll meet, whether they’re are good or otherwise. So, now I feel that it’s very hard to start a new life when I’ve to leave all my old life that full with memory even though its pain. I don’t know whether my new life will same goes to my past experience or, I don’t know.

Zulaikha was my first friend in UiTM Segamat Johor. Yes! I still remember that!! When my family left me, I’m very sad because I don’t know with who I want to speak and so on. But I always remind myself about what is my purpose to come here, so I left all the sad things behind and start a new life as a students of UiTM and also have to learn how to do all works by my own, how to communicate with other people and so on. So, I tried to make friend and still fresh in my mind that Zulaikha was my first friend in the UiTM. Then I meet with Hidayah, Ummi, Irah,Ana and many else. I felt very happy and I also get a nick name, Apek!! Its sounds like a boys name but I don’t care about it, as long as I can have a lot of friends. Maybe I got that name because I look like a boyish. I don’t care because I’m very happy right now; I already have a new friend, with a new environment, the way I dress up to class, no more uniforms, the way I study and so on. Its totally different when I’m at the secondary school. I’m very happy.

Sometimes, I didn’t realize that our life will not always happy every time. Even though I’ve many friends that like to be my friends, but there is also a people who doesn’t like the way I am. Seriously, I never disturb other people life but I really don’t understand why people like to disturb my life and get into my life. They make a stories about me that I don’t even know where did they get the stories and the most important all the stories that they made is all lie and not true! I’m very upset and don’t know want to tell who. I also has been slander by one of my friend. She said to everybody that I’m a lesbian because have affair with one of my senior. I felt so sad and almost everyday I’ll cry and stay away from everybody. Sometimes, when I sit alone, my tears will suddenly fall. At that time I felt so sad and I realize that we can’t just simply trust a people 100percent!!

Then I think why I’ve to run away from this problem and stay away from everybody and I know that it will never be solve if I still run away and not try to solve face the problem. On the other hand, why I’ve o run while I’m not make any mistakes all the stories is absolutely wrong. It’s a nature of human being that will never stop talking about other people without look at their self. So, I promise to myself that I will never run away from the problem and I’ll try to face the problem with all my strength and of course with help from Allah. I also has learn a lesson from what already happen to me. I’ll not trust to anybody anymore. What past is past and what ever happen, lives must go on and I’ll never turn to back and be a more careful person.

I know that Allah is fair to all people. After all things that I’ve pass through, I said to myself that I want to forget all things that happen to me before this and I want to build up a new life here, more peaceful without a bad things that happen to me at the past. I know its sound ridiculous and impossible, but I’ll try my best. Now, I had a sister, name Fadzliana Mustapa. She’s very understood me and very kind to me. I love her. She is the person who has been slander as my lesbian partner but she is very cool and patient in handle it. Now I don’t care what people want to talk about me, as long as I know what I do. Besides that, I also active with Futsal teams and I have been chosen to be one of the player that will go the KARISMA. The most things that I’ll never forget is when I get a Dean List (DL) for the second time in the semester.

So, from this song, I learn many things like I know that we will never be at the same place like what we are now. Things will come and go, whether in good or bad condition and that we will never know. We will past through all the happiest moment and also all a pain. Even though it’s hurt, but we have to face it. Like I said, what ever happen, life must go on. Don’t you ever try to run away from the reality because it will come to you even you try to run away. Anything can be solve if we try to find out a way and plus with a pray to God, finally we will find the way out of the problem. Trust me! So, from the experience we have to learn and start anew day without make a same mistake. Its same goes to me. Today I’ll start my new day with anew spirit! Go for it Apek!!